This is to You

For every person who caused me harm….. This is to You. To my dad who caused more hurt than love in my life…… This is to You. For the friends that turned into family…… This is to You. To my brothers and cousins…… This is to you. To all the boys I loved before….. This is to You. To my mother and all my spiritual aunties….. This is to You. For the last five weeks, God made me focus on purpose and how he has to line up our lives to fulfill the items he wants to be done on this Earth. Purpose to God is simple, have faith and trust in Him at all times even when life throws you curve balls and you find yourself walking down the path you have never seen before. Proverbs 3:5-6 tells us to Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. To be honest, this is not an easy thing to do especially when life gives us lemons and it feels like everything around you is on fire. I have learned throughout my 28 years that the more my life is on fire, the faster my breakthrough is coming. If its a lost of a job, a break up from a guy you didn’t see coming, or heartache caused by a parent or loved one, the “shadow of death” will soon stop and God is waiting on the other end with victory. I had made up in my mind that life was going to be easy, fun, and I could choose when to speak to God and how often but these past few years especially 2022 has taught me that God should not be an option, but a necessity. God is more than a friend or sometimes an entity that we choose to deal with. The problem that many Christian individuals are facing now is that they pick up God when problems in their lives are going astray and stop picking him up when the one thing you have been wanting from Him comes to past. When you decide to do that, God has the right to stop blessing you and the life that YOU chose, not the one he wants you to have, becomes the fiery pit of hell (or something like it). You cannot pick God up on Sunday and place him on a shelf the rest of the week. My advice, pick up God even when life is good, pick up God when life is okay, and especially pick up God when life is bad. Our Father wants your attention and he is a jealous God. My life did not turn out how I thought it would be, by now I would of been married, pregnant with my second child, driving my G wagon, and living in my big house on the hill. Instead, God required me to leave my job, marry a man that has more hurt than the law allow, and focus mainly on ministry. I did not know what I was praying, every morning asking Him to make me an example for His kingdom. To be honest, a few months ago, I was begging God to send me back and let me start over but Now! Today! I do not regret a single decision I made. I do not regret a single jump of faith! I do not regret my marriage! Nor the friends I lost because I had a surprise marriage! Here is what I do regret. I regret not leaning on God earlier in life. I regret not shouting His name from the rooftops before now. I regret the fear I had and allowing the devil to derail my life for so long. See folks, The peace we receive from God is beyond this world (Philippians 4:6) and the revelation we can receive from just trusting Him is most important. Robert Frost has a poem that I have held dear to my heart since I read it, “The Road Not Taken.” At the end it states, “Two roads diverged in a wood, and I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference.” When I told God at the age of 9 that I would wait until marriage to have sex, the Devil threw everything at me to not fulfill that vow I made to the Lord. My natural father hurt me beyond words could explain, the guys I dated at times were terrible and they even caused more damage, and the beginning of my marriage has been difficult after giving up the one thing closest to my heart but I would not trade these heartaches for the world. I would not replace one relationship or every time my natural father called me ugly because all these things allowed me to develop my relationship with God and that’s all that matters. “The road less traveled by” has made all the difference. It has stirred in me a passion to help you guys take a different road. Do not allow people to tell you anything less than what God has to say about you. When you receive this revelation, relationships will be less heartbreaking and more heart building. If only you could see the strips on my back from the beatings I had to receive from different people, but I tell you one thing for certain…. I WILL ALWAYS WAIT ON GOD. Isaiah 40:31 tells us, But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. Wait on God! For the child that has been giving you issues, pray and wait on God. For the house that you can’t seem to buy, pray and wait on God. For the marriage that you seem to can’t receive, pray and wait on God because where he can take you no other man can walk but you. Jesus tells us in John 16:33 that “These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.” So do me a favor, don’t live in low self-esteem and not caring because the world has dealt you a bad hand and you feel like a failure but instead walk with your head held high and smile, the world has been overcome and you are victorious, in Jesus Name. Thank you Jireh! You have given me more than I could ever imagine these last few years. Your words are sweeter than honey (Psalms 119: 103-105). I could not get here without you so to every person whether it is a positive or perceived negative interaction in my life…. This is to You and all I want to say is Thank You and God bless you. You changed me for the better and because of God and what he tells me that, we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose (Romans 8:28). Are you called for His purpose? Sorry to tell you this but Yes, you are. My advice for this week, write out everything that may be heavy on your heart. Pray that God heals you from anything that is not of him and destroy those negative soul ties that have been created and then throw it in the trash. I declare you will be better and your life will take a turn that no man has seen before. Read 1 Kings 17 and tune in next week for the blog, “My Spiritual Aunties,” where I explain that God shows love in ways that is beyond our understanding. Love you guys and see you next week.