Growth in God

This has been a very difficult week for me trying to navigate my travels plus the issues that seem to be manifesting in my life which makes this particular post very hard but I'm real so lets go. Growth in God is a concept I am still perfecting. When God wants you to grow, He will start with small challenges and as you grow, those challenges will grow. Remember, there are promises that God has made us, His children, in the Bible. Things like life more abundantly, unspeakable joy, you never needing or wanting, and protection from the enemy are all promises that we see in Bible plus from our friends or family. So what happens when God allows the enemy to come and attack an area in your life? Growth happens! and let me explain to you how. Due to my surprise marriage, I have lost many friends. Due to my natural father not giving all the money for my wedding, my husband and I found ourselves with a large amount of debt. Due to my leaving of my job, I lost people that were near and dear to my heart. So in what area was God trying to grow me in. Hmmmm…. There is no secret that my marriage is broken. My husband has a large amount of hurt that started in his childhood and continued from his past relationships with other women. No one has ever been there for my husband so this week when we were in mid argument he said to me, “I don’t know how to apologize.” Come again, say what! You do not know how to apologize. He said his family never apologized for anything, they just continued to go along. Now people, we know that saying “I’m sorry” is a human decency thing. So what do I do with someone that does not even know how to apologize. I heard God say something so crystal clear, “Help him Grow.” God, how do I help someone grow that has been hurting me? Disappointing me? I mean Jesus I barely want to speak to him lol. God said, “I have helped you grow, now you show him how to grow.” Huh? God grow how…. I barely have friends now, I definitely do not have finances, and plus I am having difficulty finding employment. So while in prayer God had me read Job 17, 1 Samuel 18, and Psalms 73. In each of these chapters by the end, the person still calls upon the name of God. No matter what their situation looked like, they still praised God and did what he required of them. Guys, I have to be completely honest with you. I was the person that knew God but never truly did anything for him past my hurt or fears. Oh but this week I did. I helped my husband come to the realization that he is selfish and have a hard time noticing others. He tends to only care about his hurt and pain.  This broke him and he cried out to God. So while in prayer I came to the realization that, I will do God’s will regardless of what the situation looks like. I will write this blog and my group forum regardless of what may be happening in my life. God is what matters….. GROWTH. No, this type of growth does not happen overnight or even in a year but those things that may look like challenges are not to God. Yes, sometimes this growth is difficult and does not feel good. Somedays, I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. But He truly wants to see if you are going to do His will in spite of what your bank account looks like, your face, your weight, or even your heart. God allowed the devil to throw me into a pit of despair to see if I would come back up swinging. I have to tell you something, I will always call upon the name of the Lord. Why? Because of the end results. His promises are Yes and Amen (2 Corinthians 1:20). Also, for God is not a man for He shall not lie nor the son of a man for He shall not repent, if He said it, He shall do it (Numbers 23:19). We just have to believe. Now, the true question is…… How do we know that God said it? That is a great question. God speaks to us in multiple ways. There can be dreams, visions, and even prophecy. But he will answer in twos and threes. The Bible tells us that, In the mouth of two or three witnesses every word shall be established (2 Corinthians 13:1). Witnesses are anything that God uses to confirm His word. Do not think, it has to be an actual person. But if God is showing you something in dreams, you need to believe it. Say this with me today…. God, I stand firm in my faith through Christ Jesus that everything you have said concerning my life shall come to past. You shall do it! It will not be on my timing or even in my realm of thinking but it shall come to past because I am your child. I thank you today for doing it. Amen. Now, the next question is….. Micaiah, how do you know that God is growing you? Oh that is simple! I have said this scripture countless times in the blog. Remember, And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose (Romans 8:28). It is so simple. If he brought you to it, he will see you through it. Nothing happens in your life by chance but for God’s purpose. We are all called to His purpose before the forming of the Earth. My advice, just trust in God and truly develop a heart of love for him. You will be just fine. The last question…… How do you continue to trust in God even when it seems like your life is in shambles? Philippians 4:6-7 tells us, Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Just place your frustration, your tears, your troubles at His feet. He knows what is going on already, sometimes he wants to see what you are going to do through your trials and tribulations. Remember, He will ALWAYS RECEIVE THE GLORY. So deliverance or breakthroughs are always on God’s timing. My husband’s advice (and this is a direct quote), as you are growing in God… come as you are. In the beginning of your journey, just pray and talk to God. My husband and I are still growing in God. But this week, he turned over a new leaf. God knows your flaws, your positives, and any mistake you have made in life. Growth in God is well worth it and my mother reminds me constantly that any person who will do anything mightily for God, goes to the lowest of low so God can bring them to the highest of High. So God we thank you for our lowest of low because we know that we shall get to the highest of high. We thank you for where we are now and we shall praise you forever. Tune in next week for the blog, “Mother in Law” where I explain why my wedding day felt like hell on Earth to me but how God got the glory in the end. Love you guys and see you next week.