Jireh

Thank you everyone for giving me the grace to post today. Fortunately, I have known God for a very long time. I knew who He was, I knew His spirit, and I knew His words. For a very long time, God was something I learned about on Sundays but forgot about during the week. It was not until I was 24 years old when I truly learned what Jehovah Jireh meant. God has several names that men have called Him and each of those names are attached to a meaning. For example, Yahweh means Lord/ Jehovah but it is also a name used for God. Now, Jehovah Jireh means the Lord will provide. When I was coming up in Christ, I always thought this name was attached to money. Oh boy, was I wrong. The definition of provide is simple, make available for use; supply. The bible tells us in Matthew 4:4, '“But he answered and said, It is written, Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God” (KJV). Remember, God’s word is true. When I was 24 years old, God showed me exactly what Jireh meant. I was blessed to have an ear to hear God for others but where it pertained to my life, I could not hear God. Due to life factors like abandonment, low self-esteem, and rejection issues, I would choose when I would follow God’s words for my life and when I would not. Just as God has plans for our lives and what he desires to give us so does the devil. I got entangled with a guy that I probably should not have gone out with but I did. Ladies and Gentlemen, take this little advice from me. Just because someone gives you a little attention does not mean they deserve your attention. With this being said, I dated the guy anyway. He was, in part, a believer in Christ but also wanted to do what the world did. See, sometimes we struggle especially at our age about how to follow God with the rest of the world. During this time, I was focusing on deepening my relationship with God so I would pray in the morning riding into work. I would try to pray throughout the day. Also, one of my spiritual aunties gave me a book to help with my relationship. For God to take His rightful role in my life, He had to help me clean up all these issues that would stop me from doing His will completely. He would use the guy to tell me things about myself that I did not know existed because of the filters I had in my life. Filters are anything that taints the things people say or do to us in a negative way and then we respond using these filters when in fact the person may have said or did something totally different. Remember, I had low self-esteem, abandonment, and rejection issues that I was dealing with when I was dating the guy. During this age, I was the clap back queen. No one could silence my voice or even walk over me. I wanted the world to know that I mattered (low self-esteem). So, one day while we were talking, I would not let him complete his sentence without me already prepared to answer him. He stopped and said to me, Stop listening to respond but listen to what I am saying. He made me take a step back. Wait one minute, how can he say this to me, God. I am just answering him. Because of who he was in my life I took his words to heart because of my rejection issues, I felt like he was rejecting me. When in fact, he was teaching me to just listen. So of course, I cried out to God. I heard, “Just listen to Him, you are feeling rejected.” During this relationship, I learned a lot about myself and what I needed to do to become a better person. I even realized things about myself that I did not know existed. Philippians 4:19 tells us, But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus (KJV). God will supply even the needs you were unaware of. I was unaware that I needed this person to teach me lessons about myself that I never knew existed in my life. The need to be healed from all those filters that I did not know existed. Remember, God wants us to have life more abundantly (John 10:10). How can we accomplish this if we are walking around offended, with chips on our shoulders, judging people? It is not possible. Jireh to me is simple, God will provide in all areas of my life. Rather that be money, words, or deliverance. Jireh will be there. God will make himself available to us and supply. For this relationship, God wanted me to learn more about myself and those areas I needed to change. So what the devil meant for evil, God used it for His good (Romans 8:28). This was a tough relationship but I do not regret what I was taught. Many of my stories involve the use of other people. Remember, Jireh means supply. He places these people in our lives or allows the devil to come for us to learn a lesson and rely on Him even more. It took this relationship and many other circumstances after to teach me, the midnight hour God, Jireh. God will always make Himself available to His children but we have to have the ears to listen and the spirit to accept those things which is true. Are you walking around offended and judging others? God, help us to have the ears to hear and the spirit to learn those items you wish to teach us, In Jesus Name. God place people in our lives that need to be there and remove those that will not allow us to grow more in you. The only person that we need to rely on is you. You are what matters the most, God. Tune in Next week for the blog, Growth in God, where we will discuss the different ways God will humble us and have us grow in him. My husband will also post a paragraph in this blog. Love you guys and see you next week. Remember everyone, we are a body of Christ so if you have a prayer request, write in the contact me section so we can pray together. God wants us to grow, God wants us to be whole, and have the life he wanted us to live all along. I am here for you if you need me.